I Know

You get up and plan your day every day,

You follow a similar plan that you obeyed the previous day

With the same wish to be productive during the day and sleep at peace during the night,

But the days are longer than the nights;

I know.

You get up and go to the park every morning,

Walk and jog because that’s a good habit,

Who are you kidding?

You have stolen that time for yourself, from yourself

Just to be yourself

But being yourself has been tougher for you than developing the good ‘habit;

I know.

You get up and feel miserable some days,

Your thoughts run faster than your legs these days,

You want to run faster than your thoughts

Because one day when you deeply recognized your thoughts, you realized those were your dreams

Things that you wanted to do, things you still want to do.

But running with your thoughts is easier than sitting with your dreams;

I know.

You get up and you want to find your oasis

You want to find a place or just a corner that is yours

You know your oasis is within you

But there are days when external settings settle you more than looking within;

I know.

You get up and want to become better than the previous day

You get to face the same problems every day,

Different solutions to the same problems do not seem to work in your own way

You try to discover another way, again,

You try;

But some days you end up believing the previous day’s version is okay anyway;

I know.

You get up and feel that you are not sad,

Also not happy

You try to do at least one thing that might slide you toward ‘happy’

But still, you get to hear, ‘live a little’

That makes you sad;

I know.

You get up and decide that you want to complaint

Vent out and release some pain today,

You hear that you are not allowed to feel ‘that way’

And this is normal, your concerns are ‘normal’

That you will figure it out, or the time will (of course)

But the passing days are your concern, the time is your concern

And that ‘that way’ might stay for a longer time, this time; is your other complaint;

I know.

You get up and try to move forward,

You are tired of moving forward to find yourself in the same place

You get nervous, irritated, angry, and disappointed

All at once,

You confide in yourself and say maybe staying at the same place now

Is what is required

But you feel more tired of staying in the same place, and even more tired of feeling all at once;

I know.

You get up and you want to dance, paint and write

You have songs, colors and pens,

You want to be insouciant

You dance, paint, and write enough but never enough,

Because it is easy for you to understand who you are now rather than what you want to be;

I know.

You get up and choose to be at peace,

You rest, read, eat your favorite pizza and go for an evening walk

Things that are comforting for you

But you want to discrete being in comfort and being at peace

Because peace should be more than comfort, at least that’s your idea and you are short of ideas now;

I know...

Just remember love,

I know everything, and I acknowledge everything.

You are a better version of yourself today

But a better version of ‘you’ will have to deal with

‘Better version’ of your problems

When you look back, you will realize your problems are a part of you,

And not of anyone else’s

And because they are you, you will accept them soon.

You will make them your own and deal with them, one by one on your own,

In your own way. In your own time.

I know!

Till then, do exactly what you do-

Try.

And be exactly who you are- You.